So play

The obvious corollary of ‘it doesn’t matter’ is ‘so play!’ I’ve been missing this. Play! It doesn’t matter.

And then there’s the question of, if it doesn’t matter, why bother? Well, if none of this is real – which is why it doesn’t matter – wouldn’t I prefer to be living a happy dream? Sure, it doesn’t matter if I’m unhappy and struggling – that’s my job for the time – only, is that what this one wants to experience? Is this one enjoying it or not? Only in my dream of specialness could I allow myself to be unhappy.