The worst thing about today

“The worst thing about today is that J’s looking after us.” L’s opening salvo this morning. Oh well, if that’s the worst thing about today, I guess we’re in for a good one. I’ve had J looking after me – one way or another – for the past 36 years, and he doesn’t do such a bad job – most of the time.

I watched where my mind went after she said this, and besides a minor deflation the moment it was said, not much happened. I didn’t seem capable of getting upset about it. I tried – sort of – but I just couldn’t do it. I dwelled on it, but it felt meaningless. And by the time E tried to discuss it with her, my mind had moved on to other topics and spent some moments attempting to recall what she was talking about.

And who knows, after all? What looks to be the worst thing about today could turn out to be the best thing that could happen. It is so often the case that I am finding it pays not to get in the way; not to judge a situation, but to watch it instead.

The worst thing about today is that if I’m not here for it, it’ll be gone. And I can rectify that.